How would you explain fate?
How would you explain love?
How would you explain pain?
How would you explain fear?
How would you explain missing*?

For a very long time, my mp3 is playing "Unspeakable Secret" (Shuo bu chu de mi mi)
I first heard this song before I even watch the show and the tune wont go away.

Do I have to go through this over and over again? Do you really know how painful this is for me?
It doesn't help even if you have been through the same heartache the first time round? Cos' even the second time, the pain is as raw. Probably even worse off cos' you will try to conceal it all.

Sometimes the more you try to suppress an emotion, the deeper it cut through. Just because you don't want to go through the same trial again and don't want to hurt or rather trying to minimize/prevent what pain you can cause, the wound starts to erode.

You dont want to think about it, I swear.Emotions is a blessing, I guess. But overladen with another layer is probably unwanted and a pain.
I wish I think less, feel less.

The funny thing about me being so bad emotional is I never really wanna show it, talk about it and share.

Ni yi ding yao ping an hui lai...